I love lucy

I put my jeans on tonight and they were tight I swear I almost starting crying..but then when I weighed myself tonight I had actually lost weight...

W.T.F.

we dont realize what we have and we take it for granted most times...laying here as tired as can be my mind wont stop racing, I came home and paced around getting ready for my shower as I do everynight and while doing so fear set it..panic..terror..at this point it becomes a battle of self medication mind racing wondering what drugs we might have..I dnt want to feel this..whatever it is..

Drugs dnt happen instead my hands fiddle around to find my tape measure, my journal and my scale..another sick form of self medication..Its funny how at a stable weight and while still eating semi normal my mind can be so disordered..

Disorders work in funny ways...Minds work in funny ways..

Off to play with more Tumblr and sleep..hair trim tomorrow and school

When Ricky rambles in spanish I love it..I Love Lucy <3