night

I ate and I wanna puke. Im gonna start ABC tomorrow indefinitely. Im so tired yesterday I worked for the first time in a week since I was sick. It was ridiculous in the sense of the people I work with are assholes and were 65% behind in sales so that resulted in major cuts, were down to 666 hours per hour with like 40 workers and mind you we have 6 managers including fuel and they each need 49 hours this means there arent enough of us and with a $1 coffee promotion going on the store is completely and utterly trashed so balancing 3 different parts of the store at once all the while being told that Im not doing anything was fun. My other boss wants to start giving me more hours also which is good.

Im so frigen tired I was looking forward to going to Borders and sitting around getting a new book or journal and writing. Or hanging out with Khadeem, or working out (well I may still do that) Now the snow is taking over and making me sleepy.

I made an eye dr apt. now I have to make one for the gyno which I dont want to she was scary. I think im gonna watch the new greys and nap zzzz

15563) I never learned to scream with my mouth. I have been trying to scream with my body for years but still fear I have only managed to whisper. No one ever hears me.