Anxiety kills

Im tired but I dont want to go to sleep.Greys generally eases my mind...and then I got an email from the past. Moving on is easy till the past pops up...I There's so much that I would love to be resolved to say. I deserve the best I have the best. The past haunts though and I hate that.


I started working at wawa about two weeks ago, so now I'm working two jobs wawa and the dollar store Im hoping I can pay all my bills and strt to save my money for next spring which is when I should transfer. I miss my kitty I miss how she would sleep on my chest and purr, I miss feeding time and her litter box I miss her.


Wokring two jobs means alot of burned calories this week is near 60 hours and I knew working would throw me back to not eating and that little voice in my head is happy, but I feel guilty and happy and weird all at once. I dont know and I dont want to even write too much about it yet.


I want slash need cuddles I love my girlfriend I kow shes all Ive ever wanted and needed Im really lucky. Everyone I show her to talk to about her loves her instantly she has that affect on people.


McDreamy is giving meredith problems and she just lost two relatives and her father smacked her that makes me really sad. =(
im gonna go lay in bed originally i wanted to write and now I dont know what to write.